ex girlfriend,

how u been? i see you still determined to make my life a living hell.well, m close to my feet but i cant still see my knees.so, u still have my lil text message i sent ya. dat’s nice. i know there’s still a lot of those kinds of messages u’r itchin to post.and let the whole world know that my heart used to be in two places.i promised to myself i aint gon talk to you anymore but i guess i have to man-up.and m tellin u, i had so many things to say as much as u have in u.
i mean,i just cant see wut r u tryin to prove.is it because i dont bring u food anymore? is because i dont buzz u first everytime im online, is it because i dont call u but instead it’s always u dat’s callin me? or is it because of the unanswered message of apology? or maybe because u assumed dat chinggay’s bad mouthin u behind your back? yes, she did.and after you two became FRENEMIES, i thought everything’s good.i just cant see what made u go berzerk.wut’s up with u? i never fucked with u. i asked u to whack off and then u act like this. i thought u’r out of this? y are u keep on coming back? is there anything yet to prove? i can’t let u ruin another relationship at your expense. push my girlfriend again and i’ll swear to god this aint gon be here in blogs anymore.u read wut u read.u makin me wanna piss on your gates again. u were a LOL material then and u still are a LOL material now.infact we all look LOL in this. especially your boyfriend who’s tryin to be cute and charming.
c’mon brownie.. ur gf and i had our shares of mistakes.maybe she told u everything but hopefully, she really TOLD u EVERYTHING that u have to know.shit. u seem so happy that u’r part of this huh.welcome to the show.and thank you for coming out of retirement, brownie pansalin. now,with this me coming out just mean two things, worsen the blog fight or it’ll stop. i know ya’ll holdin onto sumthin precious in there i’m not askin u not to expose it. proceed if u want to.like it’s been pleasurable to ya’ll that u been droppin these napalms. cause after u ran out of things to expose,it’ll be dead. the air will stop and u know when we ended.so i encourage u to bring em all out and let the whole world knows that m a LIAR and how i SUCK as a BOYFRIEND.. it’s so obvious.and everybody can attest to dat. u know dat, my gurlfriend knows dat.it’s just dat,u been goin out here  like this is news to us.i maybe wrong sometimes but i doubt it.
ever since u txted me that u’r "free at last" it has never been the same, i became happy dat we became friends. at least, u lived up to the words u told me before.that u wanna make me happy and make up to all those things that u done to me because u’r so mad at me.i became excited that i even gave up all my pwords 2 u.
(which is an obvious dumb move right there.)well, it’s not because m tryin to impress u but because i trust u.i entrusted u everything and u never heard anythin bad from me.if i can just see this coming back then,
i couldn’t had  given u that. now it’s haunting me. we had shares of secrets that i’m still keeping here.and chose to keep it because m not da type of person dat’ll gon launch a secret give-away everytime everything went down ugly. those archived YM conversations will not lie.too bad for me i deleted everythin that involves u
and on my standpoint, u will use all those things against me.this has become a contest. a popularity contest maybe. i dunno.

i know u were never sorry at all when u said dat apology.u had ur part in this you dont have to blog-lash my girlfriend if u know dat everything’s not like wut u’r thinkin.u really want to pull me down huh?

so what’s next?
i have a possible content of the next issue. i know i’ve said those things. i will not deny it. it has already been said.
unfortunately, i dont remember em all word for word so i just rely on the pits of my memory and try to recall all those things. it wil just went down to this..
1.me wanting u back
2.i still cant move on
3.i still love you
4.i dun love my gurlfriend dat much
5 everything in between dat u can use against me.

what else?
i gave u a checklist and i know all of em will come out. and after dat, hopefully, u’ll feel good.
now on the issues. yes, i invited u on da bus.i toyed da idea of us hoppin on da same bus.but dont tell me, dat u didnt asked me to re consider everything now that ur dad cant go with u.u know wut we talked bout dat night. u want extreme lazy boi but m not biting it.then i just asked u to lemme know wut bus ya’ll be in and i’ll go wit u even with him or not. u texted me that afternoon."extreme junior" kami.i know it’s still a lil over my budget but u can ask my messenger.he booked the ticket for me. double aint available anymore so i ended up bein on da same bus with u.i know u’r bf knows dat.and i can see da concern in his face as soon as i went inside the bus and sit beside ur bf that looks like giving birth on his sitting position.and oh btw,i dint used the SHIRT. no, miss. i was on my black nike that night.maybe u cant remember the shirt of urs that’s still wit me. u didnt left it in our house.ur mom gave it to me. so dat i can use it when we slept over in your house. twas your 18th bday then.i just didnt returned it.
i assume dat your bf knows that we went out together.we were on da same trike when we went home. the kiss right there is sumthin dat i didnt expected. it’s no biggie for me cause i didnt asked for it. u know wut happenend.
i even said "sayang, di ako nkpag ready" m tipsy but i know wut m doin dat night.i’m gonna say it again. I NEVER ASKED FOR IT.and i dont know wut r u talkin bout when u said that "is that what he told u" cause that’s really what happened. u know dat

you dont have to be redundant and repeat things.like we’re bitter. cause once is enough.u dun have to flood. u got ur point across already.
u dont have to GLORIFY me as a liar cause ive been that. i already suffered da repercussions of bein one.i may not take the exams cause i dun need it. i can be a lawyer on my own. its just dat i dun do it for money. now i know that u’r not really sincere on dat apology that u made. it’s part-paranoia, it’s part-boredom.
aNd this lil quasimodo ryt here is just patiently waiting. now dat im here,
u can call a parade.
and showcase all my lies. m not tryin to look good and cum out squeaky clean.
it’s u that’s washin everything up.u made me a very good liar. u made me look bad. well m a bad-ass anyway.
just think bout this. after u’r done with all those bombings,u can go back window shopin for sum forums and blogs for u to rip and put in ur blogs like u took da credit.if wer’re bitter, u’r a BITER.u bite somebody’s else’s work.
ever heard of plagiarism?
well, dat makes u happy, we’re not gonna deprive u of dat.
u better check yourself and ask urself if u aint gott any part of this. u’r right. we’re on the "gettin to know each other again" stage.i know wut u’r capable of.
u’r a curse.
u know that and you know everythin between us is over.
you’ll run out of ammos anyway. cause after me, there should be no more.
u go drop those bombs and giggle at the same . u’r takin the board, for sure u dun wanna bring this along. cause i dun want u to blame me if something happened.
i still wish u da opposite.but sooner or later, we’ll see who da real preacher is.

i’ll always gon be the lying guy dat u know. at least chinggay inspired me to be honest. she knows everything bout me dat i didnt told u before. who knows, u can still use dat against me.but well, we all got our signals flipped. too much paranoia, too much speculating and i dont wanna get involved ever again. not even with your lil jungle tribe with chupacabra.
believe the lies. after all, u choose to believe the lies instead of the truth.
i’m out.

i’ll fix myself.i just wanna do right.
i’ll re decorate our "own lil perfect utopia" (as wut u say)

thank you for reading, mr and ms do-gooders on relationship.

                                                                                      cursed ex boyfriend

~ by iamwoim on August 31, 2008.